Friday, October 19, 2007


Ugh, I need to get out of this funk! DBF needs to come home NOW! I don't feel too sad or depressed but my snack binging is telling me differently. I haven't pigged out on crap like this since my pre-WW days.

Between being sick and not being able to exercise, and being sorta sad and lazy I've just lost all motivation. I've had lots of slip-ups along the way, but this is really the first all-out bingerama.

Not for lack of trying. You see it here. I plan good things every day!!! But I can't honestly remember the last time that I actually adhered to my daily plan. It's frustrating the shit out of me, but apparently that's not enough. I'm recognizing and admitting to the issues, but that's apparently not stopping me from rummaging through the Halloween candy leaving a pile of those tiny little wrappers behind or digging out a box of crackers at 11pm or eating the entire 12 point chocolate chunk cookie at Starbucks when I used to be happy with just my yummy latte.

I'm trying one day at a time, but maybe I need to go to the one hour at a time plan.

Come on ladies, post your support for me! I need to feel accountable to someone, and apparently "me" isn't doing it. Today I'll do it for all of you. I love you ladies and I don't want to disappoint.

(Of course, I have a girls night out for dinner tonight so today probably isn't the best....but I'll give it my all...I swear!) Pin It


Bri said...

You can do it - don't worry. How about getting a goal for yourself...stick to your eating plan for a week, then you get to purchase XXXX item. Or, print off a big calendar and mark days where you kept to the plan. Good luck!

Bi0nicw0man said...

Ha! Thanks Bri, but I guess you didn't see that I had a couple of October goals like that...and they both failed miserably. No new boots or LuluLemon hoodie for me! I tried to blame it on being sick, but that was only one week...what about this week?

Lady J said...

You need to stop being so hard on yourself sweetie. You have a lot going on in your life right now with the move coming up and not having Arron with you for almost 6 months now and you've been sick a lot over the past few months. It's called stress and you're doing marvellously well under the circumstances, better than most!

If one hour at a time works for you then that's the way to go and if not, you two will be settled in your new home in a few months and together again and everything will fall into place for you.

I know I'm butting in but I'm your Mom and am allowed, so there.

I love you lots... xoxo